getting to it!

so yesterday i bought 50 dollars worth of rare earth magnets
n53 grade!
they are incredibly strong.
actually, i already broke one of them. I decided to take off the spacers in between the magnets so that the pull force doesn't multiply. It was not the greatest idea i've ever had.

the set up i have going right now is the most basic and rudimentary. The duct tape i am using right now is doing a good job at holding the smaller magnets in place. I am using the edge of a 3 cd stack.

hopefully the results will be good.

tommorow is going to be interesting

As of now i have gathered enough knowledge to begin my project.
I consider this to be my calling and my passion.
someday we will not be dependent on the grid for electricity.
my goal will be to outfit every home with the device which will dramatically reduce or eliminate their energy costs.
whether it is here in the states or somewhere else.

first projects

ELECTROLYZER
- build a known design of a simple eletrolyzer to determine an average of normal Hydrogen output (i will only use my numbers)
- build a prototype to my specifications to try and increase efficiency in output of Hydrogen
- if the first prototype succeeds, build a second BIGGER prototype.

MAGNET MOTOR
- build a known design and determine the total power output of the device
- build my own prototype of my own design to try and increase efficiency in total power output
- depending on the results adjust to provide steady current to the electrolyzer for extended periods of time.

i'm excited.

bleeeeeh

well i'm gonna try to describe this
my insides are all tense at the torso
my limbs are twitching
my vision is blurred
my mind is racing

i don't have my meds ugh
stupid anxiety

the day is way too long!

GAAAAH!!!!
ONLY TWO DAYS IN AND I AM BEAT!

so i get up. i got to school. i go work out . eat lunch. i go to work
it doesn't seem like much
but man oh man....
and sometimes i have hw but i'm trying to make that an irrelevant value for the moment

things are moving a long and in a positive direction in general.
work - good overall, got a raise and didn't even know about it.
friends - i've been neglecting most of them.i hung out with my friend Mimi and she gave me a mouthful on how i've been ignoring her.

the dealing with girls i like thing is giving me the urge to get it's own post
but to keep the bitching to a minimum let's just paraphrase it in this one
*ahem*
Ellen - the person i relate to the most on any level at the moment. we pretty much have the same values system when it comes to relationships. she has rejected me before and it sucked. now we're both more grown up and she's still one of the most amazing people i know. i'll just do what she wants based on the fact that i like her. hope she decides i'm no so bad after all.

Stephanie - yet another girl i like. this one has a twist. for some reason she intimidates me beyond reason. i really don't understand it. it's like i'm going through puberty all over again when i'm in front of that woman. sheesh. so i'm trying no to smother her because she just got out of a very long relationship. not only that, she lives in another state while she's doing her schooling. though she's moving back i'm afraid she has already "friend zoned" me. well i hope that guy from work is able to treat her better than me, and i don't mean any sarcasm by that. she's a nice person, wish i could get to know more about her.

ok that's as short as i could make it ^^^
moving on...

Family - i haven't talked to anyone in my family recently. i've messaged my sister-in-law on facebook but that's about it. they need to learn to stand on their on and not depend on the fact that i'm extremely giving. if they ask me to do something i just do it. since they don't mind asking, i end up doing everything. well it's time for everyone to stand on their own and not use me. sounds messed up but i love all of them all very much.

roomate - wow, so living with one of your best friends does feel like a never ending sleep over. well technically until the lease is up it feels that way. what's funny is that i don't see michelle much. when i'm coming in she's going out and vice versa. we did have a nice conversation the the other night though. she has helped me out so much. i don't know what i would do without her. drives me around when i need it, picks me up from anywhere when i need it. i had to fake it out and say her cooking sucks. yup, i'm a jerk, but it's only so that she doesn't ever think she has to have a cooked meal everyday. that'd be kind of messed up. i might abuse he requests to cook me some mac & cheese though. the way she makes it is the BEST!

fitness/working out - ok so i am running 3 miles a day for the moment and i have stopped anything having to do with gaining more muscle. i did weight training and p90x for a while. my body is very muscular now but there's a downside. my pudge refuses to go away. i know why though, i sit on ass everyday at work and eat junk, that's it. since i have the mornings free i am doing more cardio and eating healthier meals at home. hope to see some results in about 3 weeks.

i can't think of anything else to type....

new work schedule

well it starts tomorrow
it should leave me time to go to school and work out in the mornings
maybe even get breakfast AND lunch
this is a good opportunity to start eating more healthy
got a lot of goodies today to pack my own lunch
that's the up side
thing is getting out late isn't very much fun
oh well, i'll put up with it for this semester

lazy day

today i had one of the laziest days I've had in a long time
i stayed in bed and watched Gundam 00 season 2
it was great.
the Jimmy Johns close to my place definitely knows who i am now.
ate two of their gourmet veggie subs today

hm...
today i started thinking
April 19th will be here soon
i'm questioning whether i did my part or not
i should know, but still, staying in a dormant state while i better myself is getting kind of confusing
it's always something some people know but nobody talks about
from time to time i'll notice others who understand and have joined the movement
regardless, for those of us already in the know, we have to keep going.
truth will prevail.

staying in

well...
recently i've been a hermit crab.
i haven't hung out with too many people.
usually i'll just go to work and school when i have to.
can't decide if this is all good or bad.

i think i'm trying to stay in focus
need to fully get my life together to move on i suppose
gaah i can't wait for my new car
it's weird how my materialistic values are going to overrule the fact that i'm a vegetarian.
i guess that means i'm not a vegetarian anymore
regardless i'm still not gonna eat meat
the leather seats do look nice on acura rl's

pleasantly tired

today i picked up Ellen from Denton.
we ate at maggianno's.
it was so delicious.
we then went to fry's eletronics in plano. it was not a fun experience. all i wanted was more ram for my computer. after asking for help the sales rep pointed at another rep and the request was ignored. i stood there for about 5 minutes and gave up. i took my business to microcenter instead. i bought 2GB's of ram and a microsd card for my phone.
this is exciting because i can finally resume documenting my 20 something's
the video camera on my phone is not that great so i'm considering getting another model.
after going to fry's we got starbucks and went to entertainmart and got some movies. I chose the remake of great expectations.
"it's my heart, and it's been broken" gaaaah such a great scene in the movie.
after entertainmart we went to guitar center. the sales person there kept egging me to play the more expensive guitars, so i did. yeah, it's scary playing a 3000 dollar guitar when you have to buy it if you drop it. that thing is worth more than my car!
I took Ellen back to denton while listening to loud music.
in all an ok day i suppose.
i don't know how long i can give her as much attention as i do without wanting to ask her out
if she doesn't make a move soon it'll be so off putting. oh wells....

the lady walking out with me out of the apartment building

so i'm walking out to go to work.
this lady is rushing towards the gate just like i am.
she is carrying a basket.
this basket is full of dirty laundry
it was one of the most awkward moments I've experienced with another human being recently, although there's been much more extreme situations.
but seriously lady, next time you go do laundry, pack your dirty bras and undies at the bottom of the basket.

tko before it even starts....

down and out, just like that.
so let's take back all of the list making
and disregard the "oogle googles"
for the moment, replace them with the taste of bittersweet
within this analogy i guess it would be a burst of warm blood from a busted lip, seeping into taste buds.
reminding the conscience governing my brain, "you should have known your place"

ugh...
seriously, if my caring punched Ellen in the face, She wouldn't feel it at all tonight.
we'll just wait for tomorrow.
she sure knows how to make these hypothetical analogies feel very literal.

caffeine high!

SUPS INTARNETZ!!!!

this probably will be the high point of the day.
drank a whole cup of coffee very fast earlier along with a muffin and a chocolate chip cookie.
it was awesome!
trying to get out of work early to work on my english paper.

the past few days have been kind of interesting.
i have felt much more ok and happier with my situation.
things don't look so bad.
actually, they are looking up in general.

the only thing to wait for now is Valentines Day!
Ellen asked me to hang out that day. I'm definitely looking forward to it. so i might have to get a bit creative for the day. We are going to have a day of doing the things we like the most.
i will type down a basic outline so that i remember.

• HANG OUT OVERNIGHT FROM FEB 13th ONTO THE 14th - probably just hang with friends and have a few drinks (that's for me). She tends to drink a lot more than me.
• DRIVE AROUND TO LOUD MUSIC - from denton and maybe drive around white rock.
• LUNCH AT MAGGIANNO'S - by far one of our favorite restaurants. the mushroom ravioli al forno! GAAAH! DELICIOUS!
• PLAY VIDEO GAMES - if everyone on Team Nirty Diggers (yup...that's the name of our team) is up for it, we will go play left 4 dead.

when we have fun that's usually the formula. those are just my ideas. she might have a lot more.
i'm going to assume she hasn't changed her mind.
no biggie regardless, i'm all about the "oogle googles".
i'll just look forward to the next time she wants to spend a day together.

i started on this blog earlier today. i forgot at what time.
now it's 1:13 pm and i have to wait til 7pm to be off work.

so there's this tv right in front of my cubicle that has the channel HLN everyday on it.
seriously, that channel is one of the lamest things i've ever seen.
of course, it's great to find out what's going on for the day in regards to news.
but do they really have to loop the same thing over and over and over?
Brangelina, missing people, haiti, clark howard helping people with money problems, the oscars, the grammy's......
then they do it all over again.
these people are making money out of doing this.
oh yeah and the commercials, the TAX MASTER needs to shave his beard.

Dear English Paper

could you please write yourself?
because i am just beyond brain dead at the moment.
uhum...
oh yeah, also do me another favor.
pick me up a to-go order at Buzzbrews.
the Amigas platter with veggie sausage, an order of garlic marbles, and extra tortillas

thanks english paper

~the mannikinz~